Lots of rain lately. Funny how I just wrote that sentence and they are singing “wash me clean, set me free, hold me close and cover me.” It feels like April. It’s 45 degrees and raining. I had to drive down my super long driveway which is quite flooded. It is so fortuitous that God gave me a 4wd vehicle because I have had to use it considerably over the past few months. So here I sit, warm, dry sipping a hot chocolate, in the House of Prayer-Michiana on a soggy, grey, Monday morning thanking God for his amazing blessings and provision.
It’s wild how God provides. I have been really trusting God for financial sustenence. Because what I have done here makes no sense when you apply logic to the situation. I make almost nothing, but I still have bills. Somehow, they get paid (eventually). Not always in the timing I would hope, but I am not starving or bankrupt. The 4Runner has fuel, and I live in a decent house. The things I once desired are so far away… and so not important anymore. I once desired a huge house with a BMW parked in the garage and fine art on the walls. But I guess what I am learning is that there is so much more to life than the acquisition of “stuff.” The truth is that all that “stuff” will fade away, and in the end, be fought over by squabbling relatives. Money is nice, sure… but it sure is fun to give away. I can not wait for the day that I am debt free. Because that will free me to give way more than I do now and I am excited for that day!
So how does that all tie into rain? Rain is cleansing. Rain is renewing. For me, old mindsets and patterns are being shattered and cleansed and new mindsets are becoming more evident and solidified. Lord, I just ask for the continual renewal and the washing of my soul with Your healing rains.
Remember what Allen Hood said about Bickle. “I labor for all of this stuff in knowing that at the end of the age a demonized king is going to come and take it all away, I just want to be able to offer BOWLS of insense to the throne of heaven”. He is so worth it.
Thanks for always being there to help! I know thats jut you. But I am sure you aren’t always thanked the best! I couldn’t have asked for a better friend. Besides… I had a great time getting all MUDDY! 😀 EEEEK!
wierd, i had a dream about pirates. pirates that were invading my church.
i think rain is the best thing in the world. sometimes i’ll sit in my bathtub with the shower spraying on my head and just close my eyes and pretend its raining. and that song “i need You to rain down on me” always pops into my head. rain is good- says the woman who, as a child would lay out in her 3 acre yard as it rained…until the lightening would come, then she would scurry off to watch it from the inside.
OK, now for a real comment.
You used to have a house with a *Pathfinder* in the garage and fine art hanging on the walls. Or at lease a huge bookshelf with books on fine art. You used to have the most gigantic armoire worth more than my college debt (maybe not, but I’m illustrating here). And an italian black leather couch that was wonderful to every degree.
You still have your style and you still have your interests. You didn’t give up your personality, just some “things”.
I think it’s pretty cool what you’ve done. Perhaps the greatest faith-walk of your life.
I had a dream last night about torrential rains. The flooding was sweeping people’s parked cars down our street.
Something.